Pieces Of My Current Existence.

I just have a few things to get off my chest.

1. Vince is an epic douche bag.

After everything that went down, he couldn't muster up enough decency to give me the goodbye that I not only rightfully deserved, but that I completely earned after putting up with his bullshit for so long. He just up and left. No last words. No "I'm sorry for everything I put you through." No "If I could go back in time..." Just sayonara, but without the actual words. He just.... left.

I say good riddance.

I am moving on from him and that dark, confusing time in my life. I guarantee my life will be better, brighter, and happier now.

2. Guess who's baaaaaack?

Andrew. Kind of. We talked. Good? Yeah? Maybe. He said in so many words that our relationship might not be over?

But he said it in a very vague way that could, to the naked eye, mean absolutely nothing. But I KNOW him. And he never means nothing.

Anyway, we talked for a really long time. Talked, laughed, and reminisced. Just enjoyed each other's company. But all in all? I really just realized how incompatible we always were. IT's good to have that closure-- the peace of mind. I feel much better now. Also a positive, as long as Andrew doesn't try to get back with me, I believe that we can remain close friends.

3. New?

What do you do when one tells you that they emotionally, spiritually, and physically want to be with you, but that socially, they aren't ready to commit. I know, I know. That looks baaaad. And it makes me feel bad. But I know that he is doing what I always do. He is being cautious. Trying to wiggle his way out of it before he gets hurt. He just wants to go slow. He just wants to make sure he's ready and that this is right. Is that so bad?

Am I just convincing myself of all this, like I've done in the past? Or is he really different? Should I just back out now, while I still have what little sanity I've managed to retain?

ROYGBIV! Why is this so frustrating

DQ & WOW:

1. "The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in." -- Morrie Schwartz

2. Never get married.

Definitely, maybe,

Erika